Out of reach (for a while)

I will be MIA to undergo treatment for a fornight @ nci. Wish me well...

There way it should not be...

I will be going to NCI Cancer Hospital tomorrow. The breathlessness is gripping again. My mom is bathing me again because physical exertion renders me breathless like a few months ago.

So sorry for my mom to bath his ailing son! I apologised to my mom because instead of me taking care of her in her twilight years; I am the one that need taking care of...

Most probably I will need to be admitted. But not sure for how long and what treatment awaits me.

Friends

This post is dedicated to Cheah, Fong, Simon, Kian Foh, Mrs McCoy and Kiyau Loo.

In my journey, I found new meaning in friendship. There are friends who are steadfast in their care, and even increased the depth of their concern me. Of course there are so-called "friends" whom I thought would be concerned with me; did not even bother to contact me at all. Never mind. But there are also brand new friends who surprised me with their commitment.

The Friends have bought me joy and solace whenever they visit, call or just sms. Words fail me in expressing my gratefulness. Blessed am I to have our path crossed. I hope I have been a good friend to you too. May our friendship continue forever; crossing even the present lifetime.

Thanks for being there...

Unplugged

Unable to conveniently access the net because one of my Homeplug malfunctioned. Too tedious for me to walk to the main modem. I now work from the bed.

Kian Foh just brought a new set for me and my window to the world is open again!

New Friends

I opened my email inbox and groaned....I was spammed!!! There are like tonnes of emails which I don't recognise.

Or was it? I looked again and they are all legitimate emails from viewers of Ku Mohon last night.

To everyone who took the time and effort to email me and leave comments on this blog, I thank you very very much. Your encouragement were fantastic.

New Friends, you made my day. :)

A Celebration of Life

Talked with Khadijah awhile ago. She was at Ms K's funeral service last night.

Ms K died peacefully in her sleep. I am so happy for her. That is also something I yearn for.

Ms K has prepared a VCD to be shown during her funeral. There were also people coming up for her eulogies. She has prepared well for her funeral! Both of us have talked about this and have prepared for our funeral services; they will be a celebration of life! I am so happy she had her wish fulfilled for her funeral.

A lot of people came for her funeral; she was a very active lady who enjoyed life and friendships.

A celebration of life indeed!

Malaya Times

Newspaper snippet from here :)

Ku Mohon is a series of half-hour TV programme from Astro Ria; a channel on Malaysia's satelite TV. I was featured in the first episode. The title Ku Mohon is also the theme song of the programme by Sheila Majid.

Have a safe journey, Ms K

Khadijah called me yesterday to tell me that Ms K has passed away. Ms K is in Khadijah's qigung group, and Khadijah is the instructor.

For a moment I felt I am so very alone in my journey. I recall the email exchanges we had as we embarked on this journey together. Friends and relatives may comfort you but they will never know how you really really feel; unless they are cancer patients too.

Ms K and I understand perfectly each other's predicament. The pain, breathlessness, tantrum and frustration. But we do find comfort in our camaderie and the best thing is we found we are at peace in case of death.

I felt alone but it is only for a moment. I am now very happy for her because she is free now. In a way I envy her. She is now free from discomfort from a wrecked body. It is now spring time in her journey.

I didn't manage to speak to Khadijah today about Ms K's final moments. Khadijah went to Ms K's funeral service last night. This is so important to me that she is at peace in her last moments and did not suffer too much; this is something both of us aspire to.

Have a safe journey, Ms K. Whenever you are now, hope you are at peace and revel in this next phase in your journey...